A little rain stopped them?

First a note that comments have been turned on at my (this) blog. And they don’t even need my approval first. Feel free to pick on me all you want if you wish, but expect me to pick back telling you that you are an idiot if I wish. BBC

So I went to the OUUF website yesterday morning to see if there was any info posted about the annual OUUF (Olympic Universalist Unitarian Fellowship) picnic, but there wasn’t any information posted there. I had heard from two ladies that it would be this Sunday and that made sense as it was about this time last year that it was held.

So I wandered out there just to see who would be there that I might want to say Hi to and visit with. There was no OUUF gathering there so I came back to town and after a nap worked on polishing up a wedding document that I will be performing on August 12th. Later in the evening I received an email from one of the ladies and her statement was "Salt Creek was cancelled for fear of rain." My reply to her was "What a bunch of pussy's, where do they think they live? Haven't you ever just sat and enjoyed the life giving rain? They should be thankful for the rain and the life it supports here in this special place. Maybe next year they should have it in Baghdad. Not being prepared for a little rain is just poor planning by spoiled people, there are all sorts of covers available, no wonder I stopped going to OUUF. Bad leadership. Hugs. BBC"

I did run into a few rain showers on the way to Salt Creek but it was nice out there and there was a lot of other groups having a wonderful day out there. I now pronounce the OUUF group to be a bunch of spoiled pussy’s. A little rain is a way of life here, most of us deal with it and work and play in it, it’s not like they are heavy showers.

I did spot two interesting things in the newsletter on the OUUF website.

Why are we so afraid of living?
I’m not, I face each day head on. And I’m not afraid of dying either. But I don’t know when I will, so I tell people I love them, other wise how would they have known? Besides, they need to hear it. To really live you can't be afraid of dying.

Why are we so afraid of loving?
Hey, don’t look at me, I think I do reasonably well at it, I just want to be loved in return. BBC

Hot Springs

I hiked up to the Hot Springs Friday to get right with the cosmos, it's a very spiritual place to me. I brought back a few stones Here are a few notes about my day.

I am at peace with the cosmos, God, Mrs. God, now if I could just be at peace with the idiots on this planet. First I stopped and checked on Darlene and Darla, Darlene can't be more than eighty pounds but she is in good spirits and has a loving soul.

I took my time going up the mountain, maybe the next time I go I will stay in one of the campgrounds overnight and then go to the springs the next morning, it's so peaceful up there. And spiritual, to me anyway, a place I get right with the cosmos and learn things.

Just as I got near the pools I came upon three deer by the side of the trail. A doe and fawn on one side and a doe on the other. I slowed down and sent them thoughts of love and walked right between them. The fawn took a couple of steps toward me and then changed it's mind. Good thing, I might have had it for dinner. LOL

My favorite pool was available so I spent and hour in it. Got a container of mud for Donna's skin condition, and a bottle of water. While I was in the pool a deer came up beside it, but she didn't stop to talk. Thought of a rock for Angela so I started looking around for something that spoke to me. Most of the rocks there are pretty plain, mostly black, but I found one that has some white in it. It's very interesting, it's clear to see what I call a spiritual being/image in it. Like the white part is a hooded robe around a face. I don't know of course if she is spiritual, but I would like her to have it. The other two I picked out are pretty plain, but hey, they still came from a special place so they are still blessed with that.

On the way back to the truck I was of course busy with thoughts a million miles away when I happened for some reason look at the side of the trail and there, written using small pine cones, was the word HELLO! So I gathered up more pine cones and added 'I LOVE U.'

A little further on I came upon two grouse on the trail, I walked right between them. Well, it all has spiritual meaning to me even if it doesn't to anyone else.

This morning I went out at five am to get the Sunday paper and decided to walk around a couple of blocks while I was at it. Thankfully, in this smaller town it’s peaceful at five am, even on highway 101, there was a few boats being towed toward the marina, must be some fishing season on. As for all the crap in the paper, I see that I’m still surrounded by idiots. BBC

Portrait of a friend

"Portrait of a Friend"

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts,
or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will
search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,
and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,
room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are, but I can help you find yourself.
I can only love you, hold your hand, and be your friend.

Broads with boundaries

Broads with boundaries, bah, I don’t need them. I’m hiking to the hot springs today, you idiots be good while I’m gone. BBC

Boundaries

A lady that I have been seeing, I can't figure out her boundaries, there seems to be so many of them. I don't know what I can and cannot share with her, and I'm tired of trying to figure it out. I just seem to irritate her a lot, even when I compliment her, and it hurts me when she is curt with me. Sometimes she is warm, but often she is detached and I don't want to deal with it anymore. Warm one time and cold the next, it's too confusing, it's too Buddhist like.

Whatever her boundaries and rules are, I can't figure them out. So I put a boundary at the end of my driveway, I figure that way I won't cross any of hers and piss her off. Maybe what she needs is some mostly cold bastard that isn't affectionate and only touches her when he wants sex. I don't know what she needs, and I'm tired of trying to figure that out also. I don't know what she wants/needs, and I'm tired of trying to figure it out. I don't know that she knows what she wants/needs. Not to mention that she can't, or won't give me what I need, a hand to hold. I’m not sure that she has ever held any mans hand, and at her age maybe it’s too late for her to learn. Can’t do that unless she wants to.

The fabric of my life

A dear friend told me that it is likely that I would meet who I’m looking for as I was doing things in the fabric of my life. That she would enjoy doing some of the things I do, like volunteer work, trips to the beach, things like that. Interesting way to put it, the fabric of my life.

Well my fabric is awfully large and complex with many colors in it. I tend to look at my life as more like a picture book of experiences that is always changing. Each page maybe representing a week and looking different each week. Some things do stay the same, but other things and experiences show up.

I will always like doing some of the things I do of course. Like singing karaoke, dancing with friends, spending time on the beach, helping others, live performances at the play house, things like that. But I am also open to new experiences and that changes the picture book of my life. Or the tapestry of the fabric of my life I guess you could say. It must not be colorfast.

But getting outside of my picture book and looking at the bigger picture book of the life of ALL worries me. I just want everyone on the planet to be more peaceful and loving and supporting to each other.

Welcome to Earth - Third Rock From the Sun. The Intergalactic Hillbilly Trailer Park where everyone is related. So what is all this frigging greed and fighting about? Can’t you people just go hug someone? BBC

Court today

A friend of mine is in jail and going to court today, so I’m going there in case he gets out and needs a ride home. The time in jail was good for him, dried him out, returned some of his health so he can get back to work, I hope. He may just be ticked because no one bailed him out, in that case he may just be another unhappy camper that is unhappy that he was there for two weeks.

There is no point in bailing out repeat offenders, it’s just learned behavior, if they learn that others will bail them out they have no reason to stay out of trouble. I hope he spent the time thinking it all out properly and is ready to follow whatever programs the court asks of him. It’s the only way to resolve the no contact order with his partner.

I hope it goes well for him in the future, he’s a good man when the drinking isn’t dragging him down.

Boy, life and evolution hey?

I’ve been thinking a lot about a few of my past experiences with women since moving here, I’ve been used and abused and taken advantage of, but I’ve learned a lot about women that I didn’t know before. And I’m so stupid and trusting that one of them cost me a lot of money as I got her out of a lot of trouble when I first moved here. Not to mention an experience I’m having with one now. We are having a real struggle with that but we are both hanging in there. I’m going to teach her to be a more loving person or piss her off trying. LOL

An experience I had last year with a lady, did I say lady? I mean spoiled brat that wasn’t spiritual at all, what with her being a bad Catholic. Anyway, an attempt at sex with her just didn’t work at all as she made it all about her and I couldn’t get it up. Twenty years ago that would have worked for me, but I’ve changed, evolved.

I need a spiritual mate or it (sex) just isn’t going to happen. One that can hold my hand and look into my eyes some while we do that. I want a lover with a slow hand and an easy touch, not one that is in a hurry. There is a song about that isn’t there?

So a lady I’m doing some work for mentioned that I wasn’t giving her enough time, as in I might be at her place for six hours but I tell her to put me down for four, or three, or two. I don’t care as long as I can pay for the gas to get there. I don’t even keep track of the time, I trust her to do that, and if she forgets a few hours who cares? I damn sure don’t, I’m not there for money, I’m there to touch her. Well, sure, I do like to touch her, but I mean touch her soul. Yeah, reach out and touch someone.

Dance like no one is watching, and love like it will never hurt. BBC

The Chocolate Muffin

I'm working at a ladies place, doing some remodeling, she is exploring the idea of reincarnation and will be doing a reading about it today at a gathering. I read the rough of what she is going to say, It's okay but I'm not a supporter of reincarnation as omnipresence explains it much better.
Reincarnation (in part) states more or less that you are here to learn, but she is a very slow learner I can't get her to hold my hand or teach her anything about love. She is obsessed with security, confuses money with love, as if there is such a thing as security on this planet. She is a really cool lady in some ways but EVERYTHING is just about a business to her and her mind is often a million miles away, I keep asking her to keep at least one brain cell on the speedometer. She can't call anyone Hon, or express any affection. She just takes care of business and she is very busy at that.

She gets up every morning saying "I have to take care of this business, that business. Oh, and there is this love business, I need to take care of that also. I can't call anyone Hon, can't touch them, can't tell them I love them, so what should I do? I know, I'll give Bill a chocolate muffin.
Like I need another fuckin’ chocolate muffin. LOL.

If God is merciful why do bad things happen? Why blame God for bad things that happen when it’s humans that make or allow so many of them happen? That’s just passing the buck. BBC

Bah

Humans...... Bah.

It's even warm here

It’s even warm where I live, was ninety yesterday at five in the afternoon, I’ve never seen it that warm here. And as I went to go to town I discovered that I had a flat tire so I had to change it. I squeezed two extra years out of those tires, better start shopping for new ones I guess.

It’s going to be a busy day so I don’t have time to write much. Go hug someone now. BBC

How would you know?

Two years ago I was spending a lot of time with a lady I had met on a job. She was a good woman, but could not show affection, that is why she was divorced. I took to telling her I loved her every time I saw her. One evening she asked why I kept saying that. I said "I may die tonight, or before the next time I see you (like the next day as we where seeing each other everyday), so if I don’t tell you now how would you have known?

She just didn’t get it, after seven months I gave up, then she got pissed because I did. Well just how much time did she expect me to invest in something that wasn’t helping her? So who have you told today that you love them? It only has to be on a scale of one to ten you know, it doesn’t mean you love them at a ten, it just means you love them. BBC

A new retreat

I bought a sixteen foot camp trailer yesterday, having sold my boat last fall I haven’t had a spiritual retreat to go to. Other than my room that is. But I like to go to the beach and places like that, to be at one with the cosmos.

It is a piece of shit but it was cheap, worth the three hundred I spent for it so I could have a frame and title. I will tear the camper off of it and build a new lightweight one on it so I have just what I want. I will recycle and use all I can from the old shell. I just saved millions of cosmic molecules that must love me at some level from going to the dump and can still serve me.

She loved me
I know that she loved me with all she had, she just didn’t have much to love me with. Not to give to me or any other man. Takers are like that, she takes but can’t give. If life is about lessons, the current woman I’m interested in is a lesson I’ve already had, two years ago with the Viki experience. I think I will back out of this one rather than let her drive me nuts, and continue looking for my spiritual mate. BBC

Well Crap

A friend of mine is in jail, for arguing with his mate. And I’m going to let him sit there rather than bail him out. They drink too much, they need treatment. I love them but I won’t help unless they do get into treatment.

Two days off, what to do with myself. Go look for some trouble to get into I guess. Drive another woman crazy. Or teach her how to hold hands, whatever works I always say. BBC

Anniversary

Yesterday was an Anniversary, of sort. Yup, one year ago yesterday I met a lady that was visiting her sister here from Atlanta. She was attractive, flamboyant, touchy feely, and things like that. She liked to hold hands and hug, and she was a great kisser. She was a lot of fun in some ways, but she was also a spoiled prima donna brat, and a bad Catholic to boot. She was always getting pissed about little things to the point that I one day suggested she take an anger management class.

One evening she got pissed at me about a little thing, just a misunderstanding, and she hasn’t spoken to me since. Her actions pretty much explain why she has been alone for thirty years. In her mind of course it’s the fault of every man she has ever dated.

I would have set around and moped about it but there are other things going on that distracted me from it. Including exploring a new friendship with another lady. The next lady I’m going to drive crazy most likely. BBC

It's Sunday?

It’s Sunday? Really? No shit? Hum, do I have a hangover or not? I just got up and I’m still trying to decide. I went to Reggie’s last night because there was a band there that I like. Young college kids and we have a lot of fun.

I got a ride home with some friends, Char and Rod, as I didn’t want to risk a DUI. He might have gotten one, I might had been tossed in jail with him, but that’s when you get to use a really cool line sitting in jail with a best friend "That was a hell of a lot of fun."

How would we live if we where more spiritually advanced? Maybe we would all be sitting in bars, or on the beach, enjoying each other and the music and not fighting these stupid wars.

Anyway, have to go to work so I don’t have time to write more today.
Love and Peace. BBC

John Lennon

Imagine there's no heaven,
It's easy if you try,
No hell below us,
Above us only sky,

Imagine all the people
living for today...
Imagine there's no countries,
It isn't hard to do,
Nothing to kill or die for,
No religion too,

Imagine all the people
living life in peace...
Imagine no possessions,
I wonder if you can,
No need for greed or hunger,
A brotherhood of man,

Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...
You may say I'm a dreamer,
but I'm not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.

Written by: John Lennon

So ?

So, who did you call Hon yesterday?
Who did you hug yesterday?

No post today

No post today, have to get to work.
Go hug someone now. BBC

Seeking Goddess

Having been on this strange journey for at least nine years, maybe all my life, I’m still seeking Goddess. Mrs. God, in human form. It has been a difficult search and I haven’t found her yet, maybe she hasn’t found herself yet while on her own strange journey. She may not understand it all, but she does feel she is Goddess, or of Goddess. I feel that she must be in this area, but she might be anywhere and thinking of moving.

I’ve met women that thought they where Goddess’s, and deserved all the fancy stuff women on this planet so often crave, but Goddess wouldn’t be like that. Simplicity would be her style. She likely does volunteer work or little daily good deeds. May have little or nothing and craves no more, believing that all she has is all she needs. She would want to look into my eyes so we can share each other’s souls with each other. She likes sex and sees it as a spiritual act. She likes hugs and to be touched. She is open and outgoing and calls most people hon when talking to them, sometimes touching them. Not that she doesn’t get pissed off at times, I’m sure she does. And she thinks the world is full of idiots.

I’ve met women that used and took advantage of me, still paying off a bill for helping one of them. I thought I had found her last July, but I was wrong, in her own words, she is just a bad Catholic. Just didn’t get the spiritual part of our journey. Yup, just a spoiled prima donna brat with too much of an anger problem. In some ways she sure was fun though.

I sure would like to find her, this Goddess, I want a dance with her. And I think she’s looking for me also. Meanwhile I entertain mortals by dancing with and doing things with them.

New study:
WOMEN'S ASS SIZE STUDY
There is a new study out about women and how they feel about their asses. I thought the results were pretty interesting:
25% of women think their ass is too fat. .
10% of women think their ass is too skinny...
The other 65% say that they don't care; they love him, he's a good man, and they would have married him anyway...

Kids can be so cute

A number of primary schools were doing a project on "The Sea." Kids were asked to draw pictures or write about their experiences. Teachers got together to compare the results and put together some of the 'better' ones.

1. This is a picture of an octopus. It has eight testicles. (Kelly age 6)

2. Some fish are dangerous. Jellyfish can sting. Electric eels can give you a shock. They have to live in caves under the sea because I think they have to plug themselves in to chargers. (Christopher age 7)
3. Oysters' balls are called pearls. (James age 6)

4. If you are surrounded by sea you are an Island. If you don't have sea all around you, you are incontinent. (Wayne age 7)

5. I think sharks are ugly and mean, and have big teeth, just like Emily Richardson. She's not my friend no more. (Kyle age 6)

6. A dolphin breathes through an asshole on the top of its head. (Billy age 8)

7. When ships had sails, they used to use the trade winds to cross the ocean. Sometimes, when the wind didn't blow the sailors would whistle to make the wind come. My brother said they would be better off eating beans. (William age 7)

8. I like mermaids. They are beautiful, and I like their shiny tails. How do mermaids get pregnant? (Helen age 6)

9. When you go swimming in the sea, it is very cold, and it makes my willy shrink. (Kevin age 6)

Enemies

A sign in a tavern I go to.
Street girls bringing in sailors must pay for room in advance.

Enemies
Just figured out that I’m an anarchist just as Jesus was, have been for thousands of years. I have enemies once I reach a certain spiritual level, have had for thousands of years. And they keep killing me in interesting ways, getting nailed to a cross was interesting. I wonder how I will die this time. But I won't draw too much attention to myself for a while yet, still have some writings to complete. Back then I didn't write so there was a lot of nonsense written about me, but now I do. And the last chapter I haven't even started yet.

And I'm still an anarchist, want the world ruled by a benevolent monarchy (of the wisest and most spiritual men and women), screw all these governments that keep screwing things up.

I’ve always challenged people that where unspiritual and had more money than sense. In that respect I haven’t changed in over two thousand years, only gotten more cranky is all. BBC

Yesterday

Hum, I didn’t make a post yesterday. I’m just bummed out about how screwed up this world is. Well, no post isn’t going to stop it from spinning around is it? Or fix it.

Yesterday, Oh I believe in yesterday – when all my troubles seemed so far away ----- Yesterday.

Love by the minute now, you may not be here the next. BBC

Crazy women

Crazy Women
Actually, I like crazy women, those that think they are sane are just too spooky as we all have some crazy in us thanks to our stupid ancestors. Women that think they are sane are just problems. Women that know they are a little crazy are less boring and more fun. But some of them are too crazy, they belong in the Insane Chick Society of which Scott Adam’s has made a few cartoons about.

Reminds me of a song I've sang at karaoke a few times. "I like my women just a little on the trashy side." Yeah, characters are more fun.

The cat to the vet
Helen took the mother cat that started hanging out around here to the vet, something had nailed her. I hope that they don’t charge her anything, she says that the Peninsula Friends of Animals will foot the bill. I don’t know why they would though, and she was getting better on her own so I think she should have just been left to heal. Or die, that is the way it is on this planet. But they will neuter her while she is there so that is a good thing. Crap, people spend thousands on pets and too save pets and allow thirty thousand people to starve to death everyday, what a screwed up planet. So now I’m mommy to five half wild kittens that I can’t get closer too than three feet. Suppose I will have to trap them so that they can go to new homes.

Philosophies

I’m tired of people telling me that they don’t want me sharing my philosophies with them, or them saying that I have interesting philosophies. I don’t have philosophies, I have beliefs, developing beliefs, and truths. Philosophies are for humans.

Shrinks

Shrinks are idiots, most of them don’t know anymore than the rest of us. I went to one for a while a long time ago. After a couple of months she was just crazy and wanted to have sex with me. Geez, I was going because of problems with my wife, I sure didn't need that complication.

In my early twenties I went into a bar on Capital Hill in Seattle for a beer, I like bars, you never know what interesting person you might meet, what you might learn. I got to talking to this man that must have been in his forties and he was a shrink. He carried on and on and sounded very intelligent and profound, I was impressed, thinking I was learning a lot from a very wise man. After a while he said "By the way, don’t pay any attention to me, I’m fucking crazy." Ah, an honest shrink.

About ten years ago I met a shrink in Montana, he had retired and moved there from LA. Was building a home out in a quite part of the area. When I asked him why he retired early he said because he was tired of being crazy. So he was building a home away from it all and drinking as much as he could. Those are the only two shrinks that I’ve met so far that where honest enough to admit that they where crazy, idiots, and didn’t really know anymore than anyone else.

Getting close to God

Well there sure isn’t much sense in my talking much about myself here when they are once again hashing and bashing it all out on the Dilbert blog. I have to wonder if mankind will ever sort this shit out and stop fighting over it all. A speck of dust on a gnats ass is all any of you are until you stop fighting over it all. A waste of carbon, sexual cosmic cum, is all most people are. A gnat has more spirituality than any human does.

On Scott’s blog many of the posters mention wanting to be close to God, that’s simple. Anyone that wants to be close to God should come to Reggie’s tavern (Beer Church) on a Thursday evening, I’m usually there for free bingo. I warn you though, God is a weird little fuck in some ways, it is just where I am in my evolution and the rest of mankind isn’t helping this evolution at all. BBC

Tardy People

Many people seem to always be tardy for things. Tardiness bothers me, I’m always where I say I will be when I say I will be there. If I’m to meet someone somewhere I give them fifteen minutes, then I’m gone. I don’t like others wasting my life.

Buddhists

My experiences with Buddhists and Buddhist types have been interesting to say the least. Not that I have met that many of them but each and every one of them are pretty darn strange. They are nice enough, in a sort of detached way but they are just not warm and fuzzy people, I’ve never had a female Buddhist call me hon in a conversation for example. Hand shakers, not hand holders and huggers, I have to wonder how detached sex is to them. They seem like lonely people all in all.

They fuss about things wrong in the world of course, but don’t seem to extend much effort to help correct them. They may write letters, vote, attend peace marches and protests but I don’t sense that they are willing to give much of their own money to causes like feeding starving people.

And they are always yapping about ego and the need to stifle it. But they must mean others should stifle theirs as I note with interest that they spend plenty of money trying to massage their own. They always want a newer, better or nicer this or that. That is very contradictory if you ask me. And talking to one is just asking for an argument as they seem to want to be at odds with anything a person might say, especially about spiritual discussions, they simply don’t want to believe in anything. Yet they are always seeking. But why seek if you are never going to accept anything as a truth?

My only experience with Buddhist’s of course is with American Buddhists. I have no idea how Buddhists in other countries are. I’ve researched the religion some and looked at facts on countries that are predominantly Buddhist and note with interest that said countries are pretty much a mess, with wars, fighting and poverty.

Conclusion: I like warm and fuzzy people better, Buddhism is non-sense, too detached. BBC